Day 1. One of those days

Today was one of those days…

the kind where you smile through whatever chaos

was going on deep within you

and you grit your teeth and keep pushing…

Today was one of those days…

the kind where you find out that we are all liars

and we all make excuses

to avoid hurting others…to keep up a facade of being nice

or at least that’s what we think…

Today was one of those days…

the kind where you realize

that it’s better to keep your circle small

and that sometimes

loneliness is the best company

Lost

you used to be my compass…
and i had made “us” the gyroscope
of my life…
but now i can’t seem to find
my bearings…
i am lost…i feel disoriented and
i can’t seem to find my way back…
my compass is busted and
the stars can’t point me to
my true north…
my own chaos consumes me
and i am drowning in the depths
of my despair…
where do i find salvation?

photo: zindy.deviantart.com